dependency

Dependency is a little messer. We all hate it. And if you don't you should.

Here's where this is coming from: i've been thinking how we depend on little things that mess up our days when deprived of. Best example on my mind is morning coffee. Why do we teach our bodies to expect a dose of caffeine first thing in the morning? It's satisfying on most days but not on days, for example, when fasting. Or when sleeping elsewhere and your kind of coffee/milk/sugar isn't available. It is only then we realize we depend on it.

Coffee is a mild example, it gets bigger. The worst symptoms of deprivation peak at a migraine or such. But then there are other kinds of dependency that are much worse.

For example, i depend on constant contact with my girls. When i or any other one of them is away we become seriously dysfunctional. We're on the phone three or four times a day, messaging 24/7 (literally) and have a say in each little happening in the others' lives. When that is taken away it's everything more than irritating.

We depend on money. We depend on having enough of it to spend on everything from 20Le lattes to expensive clothes to generous tips. What if we didn't have excess anymore? Im not talking about hitting poverty here, no, elhamdolelah for everything we've got and that we don't take it for granted, not for one minute. But we do depend of having extra cash. I worry when i leave home without it and run to the nearest ATM. we even depend on the ATMs.

We depend on phone communication around the clock. SO WHAT if the radio signal on my cell turns off for a few minutes in the middle of the day? But when that actually happens i fret over it turning it back on in fear of something terrible happening while my phone is temporarily dead. Or, God forbid, i forget to charge it and have to leave home with the threatening little light flashing my safety away.

We depend on family. Daddy is who i run to, whether or not need to be running in the first place. Big brother is who i depend on. Big sister is my lifelong partner. Mami is my baby. I depend on having each one of them fulfill one or two needs of mine.

Wouldn't it be awesome if we didn't depend on anything?! It'd be the end of deprivation. I'd like that.